Since I was a child, I’ve enjoyed listening to the testimonies of senior deacon Jong-su Won. What I envied most while listening to his testimony was his pure love towards God. Even though a long time has passed and I have become a pastor, I still feel ashamed of myself in front of his testimony. Looking back, I proclaimed that I loved God, but I don’t think my love was lavish enough; it was always ‘moderate’.
I grew up receiving a lot of grace from God. However, looking back now, I regret that my life was not worthy of His grace. If I had loved God more, then a lot of things would have been changed. I may have been able to guide more souls to God.
If there is one thing I regret, it is that I did not love God more. Although it seems late, I would like to start loving God more. I do not want to regret anymore. I would like to look back at this day one day and be able to confess that I loved God with all my heart.
Last week I listened to senior deacon Jong-su Won’s sermon with my children. After the testimony, I asked my kids, “What did you like ? What is it that you’d like to have from what Deacon Won already possesses?” Amazingly, all my children shared similar thoughts with me. I told my children the same confession of me wanting to love God more. I am thankful that my kids are still young; they have a chance to do the things I was not able to do. I pray that they will get to learn how to love God while they are still young.
Heewon received the gift of tongues last week. The words “My God” and “my Lord” appeared countless times in his testimony. I have been praying for a long time that our children will meet their own God, not their parent’s God. Hearing the repeated phrase “My God, my Lord” I was so thankful, because I felt I had received God's response to my prayer. I pray that all of the children in our church will be blessed with the same grace.
Following the shepherd. . .
pastor, JiWon Choi